I kind of wanted to cry at my desk.
It's not even the weight that particularly bothers me. (Although obviously that doesn't help.) I just feel so unattractive compared to most people. I mean, the second photo is the more flattering of the two, but I still look so awful in comparison to my beautiful colleagues.
I can't even talk about the first photo.
Sometimes I want to apologize to people just for having to look at me. I want to say, "I'm sorry for this."
That probably sounds horrible. It probably IS horrible. I don't really know what to do about it though.
Relatedly, I seriously can't wait until my hair grows out. Everyone says short hair suits me but I beg to differ.