Actually, I've been having mixed feelings about the end of this challenge. All along I've been telling myself to just get through the 30 days -- that I only had to 'deprive' myself for that long. I wasn't sure exactly how I would eat after the 30 days were over -- I still wanted to eat with weight loss in mind, but I also wanted to find a way to still incorporate the things that were 'important' to me: wine, treats, occasional pizza, being able to get an ice cream cone if I want, etc.
But the funny thing is that those things don't seem important to me anymore -- and that scares the crap out of me.
The thing is, food has ruled my life for SO LONG. Even when I was very successful with Weight Watchers, food was totally the thing my life revolved around -- eating it and fighting it and eating it and fighting it. For the first time in my LIFE I feel clear-headed and ... unburdened. And I have no idea what to do with that feeling.
In fact -- a large part of me wants to go crazy after the 30 days are over and indulge on all kinds of crap -- just to feel like the 'old me'. Because isn't that what I should want? Isn't that what "Andrea", as I've known her for 31 years, would want?
If I don't want those things, who am I?
Isn't that crazy? I'm a crazy lady.
Breakfast today was ... wait for it ... eggs with sardines and avocado. Shocking, I know. Here's another picture in case you've forgotten what it looks like.
For lunch, I got a salad at Freshii, and totally spaced on taking a picture of it. It had spring mix, chicken, avocado, carrots, tomatoes, red onions, green apples, and sunflower seeds. Plain olive oil and balsamic vinegar as dressing.
By dinner time, I was starved. Freshii's idea of a 'serving' of a chicken is certainly not the same as my idea of a 'serving' of chicken.
Came home and heated up some leftover pork shoulder, as well as cauliflower and zucchini, plus a few baby carrots and sliced tomato. That is FOUR KINDS OF VEGGIES RIGHT THERE.
Well, that's it for tonight. I'm off to walk the doggie and then read for a bit. Good night all!