Tuesday, November 13, 2012

[Weekly Weigh-In] Real Change

Today is my first day back at work after a delightful four-day weekend. It was also my weigh-in day at Weight Watchers.

I’ll be honest, I seriously considered not going today. I knew my weight was going to be up and I thought, how sucky and embarrassing to have a gain after just three weeks. I thought, I should just skip it, get back on track and go next week.

But in the end I decided to go. It wasn’t pretty (I was up 1.6 lbs – damn you hard apple cider and grilled cheese sandwiches!) but I’m glad that I went. It doesn’t matter what kind of week you’ve had, you’ll almost always hear something that helps you put things in perspective or gets your fire going again.

Today’s meeting was about the reasons why we want to lose weight. It’s about knowing what those reasons are (health, energy, appearance, confidence, etc.) and keeping them close to you when things get challenging. Our conversation kind of spun out to include the reasons why things get challenging. We talked a lot about how and why we sabotage ourselves, and how being at meetings helps because it reminds us we’re not alone. One woman said that she was always frustrated that she couldn’t lose faster, that she was always struggling to get it right. But now, she said, she’s realized that OF COURSE it’s hard, because she’s really changing. Change isn’t easy, and if it is, you’re probably doing it wrong.

I spend a lot of time thinking about the last time I lost weight. I was a machine back then – a Weight Watching machine. Nothing stood in my way. I mean, cripes, I lost SIX POUNDS over CHRISTMAS that year. And I thought I was doing so great, that I had it all figured out -- but maybe I never really did.

This time around, it feels harder. I kept thinking that maybe I’m just not as dedicated this time, but I’m not sure that’s it. I think going to my meeting today shows dedication. I think ‘fessing up about the gain shows dedication. So I think that this time around, I’m trying to actually change. I don’t want to just bulldoze my way to success, because I know where that gets me – right back where I started. I want to do it right this time. I want to get it right. I want to change.

7 comments:

  1. Great job for going even though you knew you were going to be up. That's all part of the journey.

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  2. Andrea, I find that I'm in the same boat as you. I'm really struggling to lose the weight this time around. I keep thinking back and how easy it seemed before. It was new and exciting etc. I think what I miss the most now though is the lack of community support. I need it in a big way to be successful and our little WWs/blogging community has really diminished.

    I just found out that they actually have WWs meeting in my town now so I'm going to check out the meeting next week. I'll probably join again! :)

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    1. I so hear you. I really miss the community we had going back then, and have been having a hard time finding a similar group now. I'm hoping that if I just keep blogging, it'll eventually happen naturally but who knows?

      Good luck with WW, let me know if you end up joining! :)

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    2. I really miss it, too, you guys. I know there are some of us floating around. I did my best "work" then. I wish we could restart it.

      Andrea, how is WW going for you now?

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